I am sad and I don’t know why. I am feel more alone than I have ever been but I have more friends at this point in my life than I ever have. I feel hopeless and lost but I am busy and in the midst of multiple projects. Maybe I am lazy and ungrateful. Maybe I am terrified to try. at anything. to believe in anything. to trust in anyone. there is a strength in vulnerability that i have forgotten about. I’ve been trying to protect myself too much. maybe that rush of terror when you’re standing on the edge of the cliff is what i need right now. maybe i need to look down.