all i needed was this one day. this one day to just mope and be miserable and to have my friends try to make me feel better and take care of me. i dont know why it had to be the one day that all of my friends needed me more. 

i need to collapse. i need to let myself break down. but i cant. 

they all need me to be there and to not have to worry about me when they feel like shit. 

and im happy to be there. unbelievably happy to help my friends and make them feel better any time.

i just really needed today.

i feel my face being pulled downwards. my eyes sagging, my mouth curving down, all of the skin on my face feels like its being stretched and stretched. 

but thats all i feel. 

inside i feel absolutely nothing.